I am a weird sort of person. I have and love a large family. However, I feel so inadequate sometimes. I don't much like to cook, but I have to....I don't much like to clean, but I do it every now and again...I am not a girly girl, but my oldest daughter is...
So, what do I make of myself? I go to this monthly dinner hosted by different women from my church with my daughter. Most of these women make their own homemade something or other. They dress it up nicely and have people gush over how good it is. Me....I open up a box, heat it up, and take it along. It is eaten, but I am sure people just know somehow that its not homemade.
I don't have a decorating bone in my body. I have a TON of palm tree stuff in my closet just WAITING to lavish my room to palm tree goodness, but I have no idea where to put it all to make it look good.
I don't have pics on my wall. Again, its a design thing. When I try, it looks all mismatched and makes a bunch of unnecessary holes.
I dont like to sew, and in fact, I broke our sewing machine. Ha...I was only trying to make a partition curtain for my daughters room divider from the kitchen.
I don't wear make-up or jewelry, and in fact the only thing I will wear is my simple gold wedding band that matches my husbands. I can see it, but I can't feel it and that is perfect for me.
I dont wear fingernail polish, fix my hair, enjoy baking, like to shop for stuff (unless we're at a thrift store) or any of this. Am I really supposed to be a man?
All I want to do is be a friend to a couple of people, and play with my kids. Did God forget to give me the talents that most other women have? I know God did not mess up, so why am I so different? I am already different because I have a large family, I don't work outside the home, and I homeschool. Isn't that enough?
Before you all tell me to just try it, you'll like it......I have tried. I fail everytime.
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2 comments:
Holly,
You are a mom, a wife, and you homeschool. That is enough. ;-)
I think we're long lost twins: I cook and clean because I have to.
I hate decorating, I hate pictures on the walls, I'm always breaking my sewing machine, I hate make-up and jewelry, I don't fix my hair or wear nail polish, or jewelry. I wear a bun and a denim jumper everyday, and my husband is still gaa gaa for me. :-)
You just did the post on your wonderful husband; if he loves how you are, then he's the only one you need to impress.
I hated dolls and frills when I was little. Thankfully, I had an instant bond with my own, real babies. :-)
You're just fine how you are, don't stress about it. Don't be someone you're not. :-)
Thank you for your kind words. I just feel sometimes like I should be more feminene and more ladylike. Be able to cook things effortlessly. You know.
I strive to be better, but in the end, I am just me. However, I know God loves me right where I am, and so does my family.
It's interesting to note that you aren't a girly girl. I would have thought it came easy for you. And you have all those beautiful girls whose hair is always fixed. My daughter fixed her own...I was too rough in the combing department. :(
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