This is what I was afraid of when I would think about opening my blog. Seeing everyone read all my personal thoughts and daily blurbs, but not getting comments from anyone! I know...Joann, Michelle, Della, and Emily...you four are awesome! But everyone else??? Do you enjoy what I am writing about? Do I weird you out? Do you wish you would never have flipped over here? What gives? LOL!!
Just kidding....kinda!
Hey, so how about a third garage sale?? I am sort of tired of selling things to raise money. However, my house is slowly getting cleaner and more open! (Look on the bright side, Holly....) This trip will not come on it's own. Gas, food, camping fees, etc will NOT be cheap. Part of me wonders why I really want to do this? I mean, I know WHY I want to go, but what if it really isn't as informative and wonderful as I think it will? What if we went through all this fundraising stuff to get all this money, and it ends up feeling like a waste? Will it?? I hope not, but you have to understand. I have NEVER done anything like this before in my entire life. Traveled cross country with 8 children (1 3yr old and a disabled 2yr old), thinking about roughing it the whole way with tents and portable food, only to find my family lost in the sea of California....hoping that the doctor will tell me more than he did through the mail.
Will I find someone else like Rachel? Microcephaly is such a wide range of a disability, that I wonder if she will be like any of them. Will it matter? Am I just scared? I am such a homebody that this is SOOOO out of my element. I would almost like to just curl up in my chair in my familiar house and just say "forget about it". "Too much work." But, I can't........I would simply regret it and so would all of my kiddos. They are looking forward to this like you couldn't believe.
So, garage sale number 3 it is....and prayer that more money comes in....I know it will, but I am not a patient person. God is dealing with that via many avenues...Humbling experiences all around.
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Holly, this will work out in God's timing...and He's GROWING YOU NOW, Holly. JOY! He loves you so much He's stretching you. Walk through this and find the treasure on the other side.
I know it's hard to step out of your comfort zone...and BOY do I KNOW how much easier it is to give in, give up...but that IS NOT of God. Get your strength from Him. I'm praying for you and your family and this fund raising. Let me know if there is more I can do to help.
Yeah, what Michelle said.... :)
I'm still praying!
((hugs))
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